i just realized...

hmm...

i found out that i did not really get hugs from people

or i go offer hugs

you know,...

those sincerely tightly closely hugs

no one really offer me hugs (except my NS gang and very few friends)

not even after knowing that them or i was having some hard time

well, i suppose we asian are generally more shy

we don't really show our care into actions

even though we know that the person is having some hard time

we might just show that we are acknowledge but do not know how to react

we just show that 'we know what you are havin.. so just try to get over it' attitude

*maybe*

or... you don't really hug them because you were rejected by them

not once but a few times.

eventually, you will not have the feeling to hug that person anymore

cause you know that you'll get rejected anyhow

since i already knew that my hugs are goin to be rejected

what for i offer and then suffer the embarassment??

but still... ><


weather: shinning hot
feelings: want to go 'cheong k'