i miss this kinda feelingssss

wahahahahaha~!!!!!

i love this feelings...

so free and relaxing

can sleep whenever i want

can do whatever i want

can get back my 'goyang kaki' days

but the above only apply for today... ^^''

cuz i let meself OFF for today to celebrate my finished mid-term

wakakakkakak

but staying at home not goin out is kinda boring

oohhh~ those days ><

tmr i need to buck up again...many assignments to finish

yet, i still manage to find time to go out with friends somedays

it's just a matter of 'want or don't want'

and also, transportation

i don't mind fetching and meeting up last minute just for awhile

as long as i get to see those long 'lost' faces...haha ^^

heeeloooo there!!!

let's meet up~

no excuses please cuz it only apply to 'hi! bye!' friends

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tats what i truely feel till now

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a random of me to share

after reading the post of what amane felt

i always facing those situations too

even worst than her, well, it depends on individuals

i have less msn contacts, i have less telephone contacts, i have less friends to chat with, i have even less people to msg with

@@''

they msg to ask you out (very seldom)
-usually when someone is out or back from somewhere-

they msg to ask you do something (sometimes)
-it feels like i'm an extra when i'm not needed-

they msg to ask you something (nope)
-no comment, i'm invisible-

they msg or call to chat (very the rare)
-i'm the one usually who calls, and threated by mom for having high bills-

ok ok ok~

-of cuz not all the friends, but some of what 'so-called' good friends-

diff stages of life meet diff friends

and this eventually leads to lost contact with old times good friends

i often try to make meself available..whenever they call up or an invitation msg
-they really thought i'm that free, just that i want to meet them so i'll make meself free-

cuz i know

whenever i call up or msg

it's usually a reject from them

or

postpone postpone then cancelled

(O.O)'' dang!

i did't hope you guys to call everyday or msg every single thing
-cuz i don't do that often too-

but just a forwarded msg or just a call to say 'how's you been lately?'
-once a blue moon won't cost you a million ringgit-

i'll definately feel so happy for the rest of the day

this makes me feel i'm still someone to somebody other than my family members

feel so glad that i went to the Nasional Service...

we still keeping in touch with each other after 3 years

a forwarded msg to keep each other remembered

a missed call to let them know i miss them

a short call to them to hear their voices

-we still do these, after 3 years-

-vice versa, keeps the friendship and passion continue-

i did try these to my other 'good' friends too

but, very bad responces i got

hahah

wrong techniques used

i found out that..

do find them only when have important events or things

other events?? better don't

you'll get urself hurt even more by getting rejections from them

once twice trice...so on...then?? don't feel like asking them out

the maintainess of a relationship between two persons or more are vice versa

not one gives and the other side takes all

sooner or later the giver will feel so out

and might give up the relationship

one day, when you finally found out that someone is missing
-if he/she WAS quite close to you before-

ooh...too late!

you guys won't be the same anymore

might be having a good time chatting but the feelings will definately different

'so close, yet so far'

WEATHER: hot hot hot...~
FEELINGS: like tat lorr...free and easy